What i least expected~

Well,

life can be very unexpected at times.

sometimes, things that you thought its over, will come back to you again.

like a boomerang.hahax..

In life, for one to continue living in this world,

is to continue learning..

When i said learning, i am not just saying in terms of education,

but I also meant learning about other things in life that revolves

around us.

There is this nice quote,

"He who risk nothing, does nothing, has nothing and is nothing~"

The full version is:

"To laugh is to risk appearing a fool. To weep is to risk appearing sentimental. To reach out for another is to risk involvement. To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self. To place your ideas, your dreams before the crowd is to risk their loss. To love is to risk not being loved in return. To live is to risk dying. To hope is to risk despair. To try is to risk failure. But the risk must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, and is nothing. He/She may avoid suffering and sorrow, but she/he simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live. Chained by his/her certitudes, she/he is a slave, he/she has forfeited her/his freedom. Only a person who risks. is free. ~Author Unknown"

Interesting? isn't it?

hahax..

2012

yo,
how are ya doing?
bored?
if yes, then this place is the correct place for you to be.
Else, just continue reading since you are already reading this.

so, here are the list of things that i wanted to do by the end of 2011.
1)c#
2)sql
3)make a website
4)learn php and asp.net
5)learn c and java
6)learn javascript(heard that it was the IN thing back then)
7)Get 4.0cgpa.
8)get a job.

Things that i manage to do in 2011.
1) learn c#, sql, php, asp.net, c, java and javascript.
2) I didn't just make a website, but made two and its for real company and ppl.
3)well, i didn't get 4.0cgpa. Though i was close enough.hahax..
4)Manage to get a job, free-lancing making website.


i guess thats about it.hahax..
oh wait,
things i want to do by the end of 2012.
1)Go further in depth for c#.
2)Create an actual system to be use by a real company.
3)get 4.0 for my lvl2 sem1.
4)learn jsp(java server pages)
5)learn pipelining and some networking things.
6)earn my first 6k??(who noes)
7)I want to gain some weight. =D


okay, i think thats my list for this year.

oh ya, n also to tell her how much i love her.
lol... thats is to my mum who really took care of me since young.
One of the way to repay her is to work hard and maybe do more housework.

kk..
bb..

I dun need anyone!

Well, as you can see the title above,
it stated "I dun need anyone".

Some times, people say something like that out of
dissapointment, anger or stress.
It can be a lot of other reasons why they said that.

However, having to have said that, some of them
who spoke that are most likely to actually need someone.
hahax..
strange but true~
I am not saying it applies to everyone or
this is 100% true.
Just that this happen to most people even myself at times.

When they say they "dun need anyone",
its because they need some time to think within themselves.
its like searching for the answers within your head.
More like googling within your head.hahax..

It works for some people because they are able to remain calm
and slowly identify the problem.
But for some people, it will be like going around in circles.hahax..
So, some of these people might need other people's help.
Other people's help not as an ADVISOR but as a LISTENER.

So, when i said some of them actually need someone, i meant a listener.
Dun be an advisor right from the start, best to hear it out 1st.

Let that person release some of those problems,
this will enable the person to be more calm after that.
The more calm you are, the clearer you see things.
And vice-versa as well.

If you still dun get what i mean,
then allow me to elaborate further.

Take it this way, you are walking on a path like a road.
And that road leads you to your goal.
Problems are like rocks that falls and appear in your way.
They block you from your goal.

Sometimes, those problems(rocks) can be too much
or overwhelming that it ends up creating a MAZE
for you.

So, sometimes you kept on focusing the other part of the maze.
And that made you not being able to see the entire problem(maze) or not
being able to look at the current rock in front of you.

well, there are many ways to look at the MAZE(problem).
Its just how you analyse it calmly.

okay,
i dun have much time to write.hahax..
bb

I lost myself =(

Damn,
i feel like shit now.
no, not as in going to toilet~

well, i felt confuse a bit.
Everyone wants to fight for what they believe in.
They want to show that they are not wrong.
In other words to proof that they are correct.

However, due to this..
Some start to proof other people's belief wrong.
This is so that they can make themselves feel that they are right.
What kind of cowardly act is that??
If you want to show that what you belief is the truth,
then show it but not by stepping on others.

When you keep proving other people wrong,
then what is there right about you??
You are not always correct~

You have the right to belive in what u had in your belief.
But that doesn't give you the right to force other people into accepting your belief...
Do you like it if other people do the same to you?

If you want other people to accept your belief,
they must at least be doing it willingly with knowing what is it about.
Be transparent i would say.
And when i said willingly it means that they asked you about it.
Or maybe you can explain it to them at times.
But not forcing them..

btw, what i had wrote is not only for religion but also way of doing things whether in family or workplace.

Well, human are simple creatures but yet with the most complicated problems.hahax..

okay, enough said~
back to my scripting tasks~

was busy.hahx..

hey, sorry for not updating.
Was busy with making websites, doing my assignments and bla bla bla..

Anyway, just wanna talk a share with u guys a little something.
Sometimes, awkwardness doesn't usually happens until one person started adi.
Usually it may goes like this,
for the girl, "Well, he doesn't talk to me".
for the guy. "She started to avoid me".

In fact, at times, its both side at the same time.
The fact that when a person started to feel a bit of awkwardness, he or she will react the same way.
It may sound so not true, but yeah, it happens.hahax..
Can see this kind of situation quite a lot in my college.
There is no cure for this, just bare with it.hahax..
or if u want, asked that person directly why is he or she doing so.
however, its pointless asking that person.
usually you will get some reasons that dun make sense.haha..

anyway, thats all.
i wrote a bunch of nonsense.hahax..

everyday when u wake up...

When you wake up every morning,
you should be lucky that you are able to.
coz some ppl did not get that chance to do so.

Some ppl were infected by some diseases or maybe die due to accident
or whatsoever.
You do not know when you will be gone.
sometimes life can be unexpected.hahax..

So, do appreciate for those that are around you.
Make sure you live your life.
Don't wait till something happen then only you start.

Be happy always to be able to see
the ppl you care for.=)

anyway, i find this post so emo.
Ain't like me at all.hahax..
nah, dun worry, no shit will happen to me.
I still got many things i want to do.hahahaa...

damn busy now, in a good way=)
bb.

Well, its ain easy as it seems :|

I noe its been a long time i had not update my blog.
I tot no one will read it=(
well, lucky for me, i have at least one reader,
that is non other than Jessica.=D

well, i made a lot of decisions lately.
And i am telling ya, those decision were ain't easy.
hahax.. i think most ppl will feel the same when they make theirs.
for most ppl, their situation is the most important compare to others.
There is always this sentence that they might say to themselves,
"My problem is bigger than anyone elses problem"

anyway, forgive me for the sidetrack above.
Its a very bad habit of mine.hahax..

Sometimes in life you can't have best of both world.
When you make a choice to have something, you need to let go
something else.
You cannot be greedy to have both.
Coz if you want to have both, at the end you will end up with neither one of it.

Same thing like if a girl knows two guys going after her.
She needs to choose and not saying that she wants both.
If she wants both, there will be a terrible consequences.

So, in life, just make a choice.
Dun have to worry too much, after all,
things will slowly fall pieces by pieces like pieces from a jig-saw puzzle.
And then all those pieces will form into one picture,
that is your life.

However do not blame ppl for when bad things happen,
coz most of the time it was your choice.
So, point to yourself before you blame others.

Okay, thats all i guess.hahax..
thank you so much, Jessica.