Tuesday, October 26, 2010


i am mr.lonely..
not so lonely after all..
still got facebook.=)
and you.
yeah, the one reading this.

i am not gonna write anything 2day.
feel damn lazy..,
my wrist not okay yet=(

wanna let it recover fast..
need to nail down windmill in 2 weeks.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

i wasn't thinking bout me, i was thinking bout us...

as the usual, ignore the topic.
It was meant to be eye-catching.
still here ah? ok lo..

My right wrist is pain now..
so won't be able to type much.hahax..

okay, today will be on worry.
Some of us when we do things, such as task, projects.., we tend to be thinking on what the worse may happen.

lets talk a bit on fear, paranoid...
Our ancestors in their days, survival is important.
In order to survive, they would go as far as not only to adapt the environment fast but also to take many precautions.

These things had been passed down to many generations and finally to us(the current one).
So, most of us, whenever we are alone, we tend to be paranoid, feeling of being followed or sense of danger. Thus, its normal to feel so.
So, from those things, that are passed down, wanting to survive causes us to fear and take precautions. Thus, making us feel even more vulnerable at times.
This causes us to worry.

Well, i read this somewhere in a book that i forget.
Anywayz, sometimes these feelings(worries) are too much, unnecessary thus causes us to feel down.
Well, it won't be that obvious, because it won't only be one factor contributing to it but many problems or things or situation in life that we face, it accumulates and stack up.

That is why you can see someone down for no reason at times, especially females.
Its an accumulate effect. So, when this happens, they will find someone to release on, someone close i guess.
Release can be a talking kind of release form or sometimes can be like picking on that person(scolding, showing dislike..and etc).

Okay, i had sidetrack a bit.
So, as many of you may know, our ancestors travel in tribes(group) to hunt or whatsoever.
Again, this had been passed down to us.
That explain why most of us want to be a part of a group, sense of belonging.
When you are in your teenage, you would like to be in a group.., adapting to it.
Changing yourself to suit them, fearing or worrying that you will be left out by them.
Us humans, had the tendency to feel vulnerable when we are alone.
Thus, we associated ourselves with a group of people that hopefully may or had accept us.
So, sometimes, in the process of changing yourself to suit them, there might be some feeling of unhappiness or discomfort.
This is actually because you are deviating away from your "trueself"...

Naturally, one will feel "that", coz its like being someone else you are not!!

hoho.. hw many of you ever face this before? please raise your hand up..
okay, so now how many of you are lying??hahax..jz jk..

anyway, oppss... i sidetrack again.
This is what happens when i dun have a proper title..ha..

Continuing what i had wrote, many people then change to gain acceptance of others.
After being accept into the group, another type of worry arose...
life is kinda sad rite? wanna be happy bt yet another sad thing surface up.

There is then a thing called "pressure" that exist within the group.
Okay, imagine everyone dun wanna be left out by the group they had work so hard to get into..
They do not want to do something that is againts or opposite of what the group do.
Or sometimes fear of saying the wrong thing or wrong action..
Example, rejecting an offer to go out with them to hangout.
Coz if they do that, they might be treated like an outcast(outsider) by their very own group they cling on to.

Although there is actually not much pressure, most people create this pressure from their own..internal paranoid...self generated worries..

All these pressure whether by internal and external force on the very individual itself.. that is you...

Okay, here comes the hard part, many people fail to handle these pressure.
And thus worries it then became.
(i sound so shakespearish..haha)

People who end up having too much thing to worry, end up suffer from depression..
Some may show, some may not.
Effect of depression may lead to many things..
Okay, i will talk on this next time.

So, what i can say is that feeling of worry, sadness, being hurt(whether being troll or not), and all sort of other negative feelings..all these are not avoidable..
You will at least get hit by one.
Whats more important is that "how are you gonna handle it?"..
That is more important..

To put it simple,
One cannot avoid sadness or being hurt, but one can however choose whether to suffer from it or not...

okay, i noe i am acting like i am all wise and stuff.lol
i was trying 2 gain acceptance..hahax..jz jk..
i dun need a fix group..
a lone wolf that hunts alone.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

u smile, i smile=)

u smile, i smile lo..
its simple as tat..
if u dun smile, i still smile=)
i need ony 1 reason to smile, bt need at least 10 reasons not to smile.

call me a simpleton.
oh, ya, next week will be vb on database.

anyway, ystrdy i reas the star newspaper under "Dear Thlema"
one of the case the writer which is that this man,
who is married to this foreign woman for 18 years old and have 2 kids.
He is the only one working, providing everything..
He thought he provided every everything means he can say anything.
He said his wife is stupid for not understanding him.
Many things happen la. He often insult his wife.
Then he want her out of his life, divorce by always blaming her and stuff.
Even his children can see that and did not talk much to him.
He then blame his wife for influencing them. ==
Well, then the editor replied:
"Yes, your wife is foolish and stupid enough to marry a man like you for 18 years and have kids with you and bearing with all your actions and insults.
Yet, she never complain.."
This is what happens when one is working while the other one is not.
No earning power, no say..
this is what happening these days.
But the husband never see how good his wife is.
Being with him for 18years.
Always there for him.
He never realize that.
Shame on him.
Got a lady who is willing to tolerate and yet still love you but dun wan...

its jz an update..

Monday, October 4, 2010

the bitter truth..

wait, why did i put this topic??
you guys thought i am going to write about myself?
nah.., in your face..
eh.., still here ah??

ok lo.., i shall proceed.
sometimes when a person suddenly changes his or her way of treating you,
at that time, you have to take up the courage to ask the person.
don simply assume things.
Things might not what you expect it to be.
But also make sure you are ready for whatever answer you get.

Well, some people ignore you out of sudden, avoiding as in.
This kind of people sometimes think that in that way, they can avoid.
But to the person they avoid.., will think differently.
Some may think that why is that person acting that way?
Did I do anything wrong?
or say anything wrong??
silence is golden at times, but silence can also be like an assassin of the night.
That person will feel sad not because of being avoided or whatsoever but sad that he or she did not know what had he or she done wrong for this to happen.

maybe next post is about ICT.

Friday, October 1, 2010

today is a good day=)

2day is a good day.
coz its friday=)

So, lets talk bout the people now a days where they start to act aggressive towards others.
Now, when this happens,
words that are as sharp as blades will start coming out..
Sometimes even actions are taken that will hurt another.
But, you may ask.., who is at fault?
Allow me to first explain a few things.
Now lets look at the reasons:
1)Due to disagreements.
2)Due to prejudice.

Now, everyone are different as in way of thinking even the slightest bit due to experience and education from surrounding.
When ppl have different thinking, which cause them to disagree and prejudice.
They end up clashing with others whether big or small clashes.
Thus, everyone will argue, disagree and fight at some point of life even they do not want that to happen.
Who would want to always argue or fight?
Nobody wants it to happen..

Hey, but i am a nobody, thus i will want=)

hahax.. jz jk..
back to the point,
so now, whose at fault?
okay, first of all, in most disagreements, there will be one person(1st) who started it by saying something or doing something.
There will be another person(2nd) who will react to that action or words.

So, many ppl mite say that its the 1st person who was at fault.
Well, both were actually at fault.
1st person could have express things out in a better manner or channel.
2nd person could have control him or herself to react properly towards the 1st person's action.

Either way, both side could have handle it better.
Not saying that arguement can be totally avoided, but reducing its frequency of occurrence and its effect even if it happen.

Not asking you to change overnight though.,
it takes time.
You can move a big mountain to another place by yourself in jz a moment but it takes time.(Not including using big machine or dynamite and stuff)..